Funny how that works.

I’ve seriously just stopped doing real work at work. More importantly, I’ve missed you dear blog!

I feel like this has been a weird week for everyone. We lost a family member last week and since then its set a wave of unusual activity in my life.

When we were in Cleveland last week, Ryan’s uncle passed away. He suffered with muscular dystrophy and had been recently hospitalized. As we were driving to have lunch with the family, we got a call that he was about to pass and to come immediately to the hospital. That was the last time we saw him. As terrible as it is when a someone passes, it was a situation we felt better about. Uncle Mike isn’t suffering, this was what he wanted. Funny that the same day we lost a family member, my sister had interesting news….

As I have yet to share this blog with my family, I feel pretty safe in sharing my secret with you. I’m going to be an aunt. I technically already am one, but it’s different when it’s your own family. For the record, my older sister is in her 30s, she’s a doctor, living with her boyfriend of 5 years. She has the means to have this child but it didn’t stop her gut reaction of being scared. Scared of what? Telling my parents.

Its funny that this successful 30-something year old woman was scared to tell her parents. And as I thought about it,  I’d be scared too. I may be married, but I don’t have the means to support a baby. We both had the mentality of being 18 and pregnant. My parents scare us that much… and I love them for that. For whatever reason, it translates to having a tremendous amount of respect for them and valuing their opinions. Either way, now that the shock wore away, my sister is happy. Looking forward to this stage of her life. It’s too early to tell people, particularly my parents, but that time will come. And I have no doubts I will share it with you :)

So, in one day, we lost one person to potentially gain another. Funny how life works.

It’s been an emotional week for me. One filled with sadness, fear, happiness, excitement, somber, and dread. Maybe you’ve had this: when everything goes wrong in your world. When you voice the woes of ‘why me’? When it’s possible that everything in your life goes wrong. I’ve found these moments often in my screwed up life. And it’s during those times that I can never remember the times that follow: when everything goes right. When you get your way. When you smile just because you’re breathing. So here I have a moment when my emotions are mimicking real life. I struggle to remember that when the bottom falls out, you reach a new top. You will find your footing, stronger than before. With the loss of one life, comes the breath of new.